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Tuesday, July 31, 2012

your poetry is knitted from the stripes of life


dedicated to my favorite poet,
 whose mind and writing inspires me to write.

your poetry is knitted from the stripes of life.
the daffodils don’t smell like roses,
but smell like daffodils,
for me they smell like spring.
 the knife by the loaf of bread
is not for murder, as I would guess.
 there is a glass of water, on your kitchen table.
I sip, it’s salty. I wonder why?
maybe you brought it home
from your last ocean’s trip.
 maybe, you carried a golden fish in it,
one with three wishes.
you said, it was the teaspoon of Epson salt
 that gave it the taste.
but then, I see, like I am blind,
I touch around every straw.
 I know,      
the mystery is there, I smell it.
perhaps in a drop of water,
silently shining on the table,
perhaps beneath your shoe,
perhaps,
it’s hidden in your smile…

c:Nina K Orlovskaya7/31.2012

Monday, July 30, 2012

вы меня никогда не любили


вы меня никогда не любили

(for my Russian reading friends. “you never loved me”)

вы меня никогда не любили.
может быть, облака разорвались
и на север урлыли, истекая водой
этой ранней весной.     может быть
безголосые птицы,   безголосых птенцов
в полночь дикую волкам скормили.

вы и преде меня не любили,
когда срелые яблоки падали
к вашим ногам,  разбивались,
обливали слезами цемент,  когда я
собирала их в ледяные ладони…
всех срасти всеравно не смогла.

вы меня в моих снах не любили,
когда ночи мои торопливые плыли
рыжим облаком пыли, 
перед стадом чумных лошадей
ветры - волки безрадотно выли
над предательской прорвой…

может и я вас совсем не любила

c:Nina K Orlovskaya@7/30/2012

you didn't love me


you didn’t love me

you didn’t love me.
maybe, the spring
was early.     maybe,
the last winter’s breath
sprinkled the remnants of ice
over the birds’ nests.
they  didn’t sing a song,
that spring.
maybe, the flowers grew
fragrantless and stillborn…    
that year.
you didn’t love me before,
when the red apples rained
in the fall,
beneath the exhausted tree.
I tried to save them all,
singing and swinging a lullaby
with my icy hands.
you didn’t love me in my dreams,
when my empty nights were disappearing
somewhere
into the black and white nowhere,
like herd of wild horses
over the treacherous cliff...
you didn’t…
I hoped

c: Nina K Orlovskaya@7/20/2012

Saturday, July 28, 2012

thinking of you


thinking of you

the mix of the feathers and rain…
I mix
the bee song by the purple flower,
the flower petals and  
spring water.
I  drink the drink of you
from your lips,
from your fingertips.
I pluck a kiss from your eyes.
I  grow a tree in my heart,
with smiles,
as the leaves.
and the blue birds sing a day
into your window

c:Nina K Orlovskaya @7/27/12

Friday, July 27, 2012

silent words


 silent words

her eyes
draped in the green silk of pines,
afloat
in a river of broken needles.
the salty potions, in pairs,
dispensed at random.
the wind
tastes the bits of her soul
and retreats, like a wounded dog, in an auburn cloud,
losing its breath forever
in the jungle of the tangled vines.
she doesn’t say a word.
she whispers in tongues
of the fading moon.
and a wolf, stopped on his trail,
echoes back.
a newborn child, still inflicted
by mother’s agony,
breaks its cry on a half of a note
and listens...
the whisper of life,
upon eardrums,
for the first time

c:Nina K Orlovskaya@ 7/27/2012

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

fragments


a thousand  words,

a thousand smiles

for a thousand  years,

swings

from the rays of the rising sun,

looking for you


c: Nina K Orlovskaya 7/25/2012

Monday, July 23, 2012

invitation (short children's story, draft)


Invitation.

For a thousand of years no one ever bother Aigo, maybe even more than that. Math was always Aigo’s weakness. Of course he can count … to 10. And what is the purpose of more, just a repetition. He knows how to add; he never learned how to subtract. And his mama used to say “ Son, don’t worry, as long as you know how to add, your world will rotate in right direction”. Aigo didn’t know which the right direction for the word to rotate was. Every morning, since that conversation, he would go outside and check the Oak tree, where his friend Tallo lives, and if the tree was on his left side, the world was rotating into the right direction. Consequently, Aigo’s life was all right.
For ‘thousand of years’ no one ever bother Aigo. He did have friends and neighbors, but in his world no one ever visited anybody’s house, or apartment, or hole, or any other pace of residency. It was considered inappropriate. And it made sense. For a moment Aigo imagined himself counting every single thing in his house after each visit. It would be nightmare. Yeah, he inherited and accumulated a lot of stuff. As a matter of fact, there was so much ‘stuff’ that he did not remember when was the last time he could place his feet on the floor. Always something was on his way. In Goblin’s world nothing goes into the garbage, everything is saved and treasured.
Very often Aigo would think that it is time for him to move out of this crummy place somewhere, where is warm and sunny and start his life from the beginning. But the idea of moving out for Aigo, like for any other Goblin, was painful even to think about, since the time when they were expelled from the human world.( Many years ago goblins were expelled from the human domain and prohibited to return, unless invited. But it was so long, humans all forget about the Goblins existence. )
Aigo believes, when he will retire, he’ll move to the meadow, closer to the sunlight and maybe write his memoir to shed some light into his ancient soul that is hidden in a secret place.
At this time his life was placid, comfortable and no one ever disturbed him. His mama used to say “Aigo, one day, something will hit you, if not lightning than meteor or rotten tree. We stay for too long in one spot, always be ready for that moment, son”. Aigo believed his mother, but thousand years is a thousand years, he started to doubt her wisdom.
While he was pounding these philosophical concepts, someone knocked on his door, first time lightly, second time louder. If one would think that Aigo was shocked, it would be huge underestimate. He felt as if he was stroked by lightening and stung by a family of angry bees. He knew it was not a hallucination.
He slowly opened the door: all the locks, combinations and chains. First thing he checked if the Oak tree was to his left. It was! The mailman was standing by his door; he held a letter in his hands.
“Aigo MigGoblin?” mailman asked.
Mig was his Aigo’s middle name. Yes, he was shorter than any Goblin alive. Aigo didn’t like his middle name, but it was not a good time to debate. Remember, the door was open. Anyone can sneak behind his back. Trust isn’t a word in the Goblin’s dictionary.
“Yes, this is me.”
“Your signature, please.”
Aigo scribbled his name on the bottom of the long list and took the letter from the mailman’s hands.
“It was quite a trip to locate you.” Concluded mailman and walked away.
Aigo latched all the locks on the door, sat in his favorite chair by the fireplace, scratched his head behind his ears “ Wow” he thought “so many years nothing and suddenly one day you get a knock on the door and a letter.”
Aigo sniffed the letter, chewed on the corner and concluded that a human wrote it. Carefully he opened the envelope and pulled out the letter. The letter was short.
It read. ‘Hey, MigGoblin, my friend Nick and I invite you to move with us. We have a little room for you and we can have another roommate, we can use extra money. Since the room is really little we need a little person and we thought that it would be nice to have a Goblin roommate. And we hope to see you soon.
Sincerely, Nick and Mike.
Nick was watching TV. Mike was pulling two beers from the refrigerator, when the doorbell rang loud and nonstop.
“Mike, open the door! Oh, I have such a headache! Mike, open the door!” yelled Nick from the other room.
Mike run to the door, still holding the beers in his right hand. The doorbell rand insanely. He opened the door… both bottles slipped out of his hand and fell on the floor with loud thud. His eyes bulged out of his skull, his lover jaw dropped to his chest, his breath ceased somewhere at the bottom of his lungs and he began to feel faint.
Aigo was smiling; he liked his new lifelong friend Mike.
c:NKO 2012 draft

Saturday, July 21, 2012

I will never know


I will never know
how my name sounds in your voice,
how the church bells announce
 their location,
on a Sunday morning,
 how the wind whistles through the empty pipe,
left on your path for an unknown reason,
I will never hear the sound of the raindrops,
silently breaking their perfection
over your window,
 over the white and black day
 like an old movie, 
  …. people talk the soundless talk,
like a fish out of water.

I will never hear the sound of my name,
but I can imagine your soundless whisper,
soft, heavy silk, an untangled cocoon,
wrapping my body tight,
 like a mummy,
for the afterlife pleasures.
a whisper
of the shimmering moon’s stripes
over the water,
tugging the ocean along, in circles.
yet, restrained and locked in its own world,
sentenced for life, helpless…
 drown in silence, unknown,
…familiar.
I will never know,
but I can imagine 

c:Nina K Orlovskaya@7/20/2012

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

in a whisper


in a whisper,

the spell of you

drifts

 beyond your words,

into a sound,

colored in the ocean’s waves,

rustles over my skin,

like the autumn wind

over a pile

of burning amber,

consumes my breath,

absorbs the moisture

from my bones,

gasping for more,

like the open mouth of the moon,

hungers for the last drops of life,

left in the dark branches of the sleeping woods

c:Nina K Orlovskaya@7/17/2012

Monday, July 16, 2012

I will be silent


I will be silent.

the night

guards the treasures.

…moonlight bleeds,
     
marking the map

for the day to follow.

silence,

makes the air too heavy to breathe

and disassemble birds

part by part.

I can be silent about it, but

I must

collect all the body parts,

all the feathers,

all dust,

 …ashes

from the burnout fire.

I can be silent

about falling stars, but

I cannot forget the light


c: Nina K Orlovskaya 7/15/2012

I rest


I rest.

my cheek to your shoulder.

I watch

a seagull’s wings and clouds

bathing in the kisses

of the rising sun.

lighter than air, silently admired

by the earth, we are resting on.

you and I,

asleep…

I am the cloud

and you are the wings

in embrace.

we float above the earth,

above water

above ourselves


c:Nina K Orlovskaya @7/15/2012

we will


we will

we’ll find each other

by the end of the day

and reunite

in our mother’s house.

we’ll share a drink,

left by her
,
in a special chalice

engraved with constellations,

ingrained in our memories.

we’ll rest by the fire.

our father kept it burning,

awaiting for our return.

and by the sunrise

we will emerge

as one


c: Nina K Orlovskaya 7/15/2012

Friday, July 13, 2012

morning


morning

it rains, the thunder vibrates

like the heartbeat of a dying giant:

one last attempt… one more…


…no more.


the beads of water sing,

talk, whisper, run together

into the ocean, to live

in unity for the short eternity,

while the face of the day rises

from the far horizon, from water,

in flames


c: Nina K Orlovskaya 7/13/2012 

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

in time


in time

time loses  minutes like roses lose petals:
into the past, into dust

…It always rains here.
 I’m walking over the wet grass,
over the memories, soaked and heavy

the thunder stays beyond the gates.
silence settles beneath my feet.
my heartbeat,
the loudest sound, echoes from all four corners
like the shaman’s drum at sunset,
 shattering the last mirror of the day
into the stars and fireflies – sparks,
 lost in darkness

I dare to whisper your name.
there are places and time when we are separated with our names,
for names are light, they always stay above

7/9/2012 Nina K Orlovskaya 

Thursday, July 5, 2012



my two-dimensional world
(3 poems)

there are no needs for talk.

in silence,

I drop thoughts in the dirt,

when the time to harvest comes. 
  
in August,

I  harvest the land


  
… I die

 at the end of each breath,
love from the first sight,

run after the setting sun,

despite

the fear, the prowling darkness



 I  don’t  travel beyond the sunset.

by the sunrise I return back home, 
  
guilty of the sinful thought

finding the edge of the world.

it is flat, where I came from


c:Nina K Orlovskaya 7/5/2012

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

traveling light


traveling light.

                     kneeling,
water in the shallow cup
of my palms, mixed
with the sunlight, pine trees.         
 the breath of the forest
melts on my lips, 
I drink from the spring.
…you wouldn’t risk drinking with me.

you didn’t give me my name
when I was lost, blind, unborn,
 when I was the rain, the night,
the cry of an owl in the darkness.
you didn’t hold my hand,
when I was born,
when I walked  over the fire,
when I died

c:Nina K orlovskaya 7/3/2012

Monday, July 2, 2012

I will learn to live without you

I will learn to live without you

I will learn to live without you.
the sand castle lays in ruins,
my days walk the desert
and nights
hide in the icy caves.
a blanket of milky fog over my memory.
the grains of words sifts,
sounds flow like water,
the white roses are frozen… broken…
fragile icy crystals… cuts over my skin.
a wolf howls—
full moon echoes,    spills the light
through the nets of my hands.
I am learning to live without you

c:Nina K Orlovskaya 7/2/2012 

Sunday, July 1, 2012



a teardrop splits

in vapor

and salt      binds the time and distance

into the past,

crystal by crystal,

bead by bead.

…daylight falling into dust

under the pressure

of the rising moon