letters (falling in love)

You are at the threshold of a new life; you are looking to reintegrate yourself into the world you left many years ago. If I am to tell you one thing to do, I’ll tell you to take some time off, a half a year or maybe as much as a whole year and allow the transition to happen. Normally, we believe that we have the power to do things in life. This belief stemming from the innocence of the ignorant state, we spent most of the time. The best and the only thing one can do in this situation, to be available.
It is difficult to realize, that one must be available even for Death. Of course, none of us have a chance to run away from Death nor from Life, it will hunt you sooner or later. What one can do is to become available/unavailable, visible/invisible whatever is the objective.
If your destiny is looking for you, you are going to be found whenever you are. On the other hand, if you are looking for your destiny, you would have a better chance if you have some strategy where and what to look for. In this case, you must make yourself visible and available. It is to be done by moving around a lot, one place could be a trap, unless you are the lucky one and your destiny just happened to stop at the same geographical location. Don’t fear to lose the opportunity for such a meeting. If your destiny will spot you, you’ll have no chance to outrun it.
Since you are looking for a specific reintegration, your case is much more complicated. Not only you must make yourself visible and available for Life, you must fall in love with it and the feeling must be mutual. How one can make Life to fall in love with him? Love is a mystery and falling in love is an effortless event. Although, not every one of us will have an experience of such an event.
One sunny midmorning you are leaving your house. It is middle of the spring: birds are happily chirping, skipping from the branch to branch. You notice a bunch of beautiful narcissi that opened their heads over night and wrapped the ground in a white veil. You suddenly sense an incredible stillness in the air. The fragrance of the blooming trees lingers so low and so thick that each of your inhale feels like a sip of nectar; you can feel how it enters your bloodstream and touches every cell of your body with warm pulsating light. The waves of a minute vibration ripple between your hair follicles and toenails. The limits of your body melt and dissipate. Your mind caved under the pressure of your feelings. You know if this state will persist any longer you will never collect yourself back together. You are in fear. And suddenly something light lands on your face, gently caressing your cheek. You take it in your hand and see a little feather. The world around you changes into its usual clothes. You walk about your business and you know that your Life was in love with you just a moment ago. And you will go back into that moment as time will pass and each time you will find that it is your sanctuary where time had stopped.
It is my story of falling in love with Life, yours would be different but feelings would be similar. It is easy to miss the moment when we walk around immersed in our foolishness. Make yourself visible and assessable.