Fear

fear was all,

it was liquid in the beginning,

filling my lungs with every breath,

starting from the first, when I coughed out

amniotic fluid, gasping for life.

what did I know!?

I reached with my hand to touch,

all I found was fear, it soaked

through my skin: dark, cold, roaring,

like nothing before, like nothing after.

I was blind back then. I saw the darkness

and nothing more…

if there was God and salvation,

it came to me in the form of sight,

it shrouded me

in a cocoon of comfort for a short while, 
until the time
I would have to go 
where I come from –

separation and fear

c:Nina K Orlovskaya 6/21/2012