fragments (I feel nothing)

when I feel nothing
and ready to die,
time stays away from me,
in the distance and observes
as stilness pours Hell
in to the bottomless minutes of my eyes.

I say “Good bye” to you.

life is a ticking time bomb,
ready to explode, unannounced,
like the heart of a red star.
but not today,
today I feel nothing.

death embraces me with blind love,
with her breath – white frost
in my every follicle.

when I merge with her unconditionally,
I feel nothing…
I start aching…
when I see her walking away.

©3/20/2012 by Nina K Orlovskaya