fragments (the choices, conclusion)

And, in conclusion, life is a routine. “Magical Beings’ (Castaneda), have no routines. In my mind – alive being has choices versus routine. If one doesn’t probe the fringes of his routines, how can one possibly know that he is alive? Who said “I am thinking therefore I am alive”? Not so fast. Let’s say in my dream I travel across the Galaxy, land in an alien world, interact with alien life – all extremely vivid dream/memory. For 10 minutes of real time, my mind thought and lived decades of a very interesting life. And I was not aware at all of my ‘other’ body, comfortably resting in the bed. It’s going to be like this every time until I will train my brain to split in two: let one wander and another to know better. It would be a mistake to try changing or to control oneself, evolution spent millions (?) of years to mold me into what I am, I cannot change anything and since I endured it all – I am perfect as I am. But I can change my immediate environment. There is a tricky thing about the environment – it resists any changes, sometimes violently. You cannot command it, you must trick it. One method I know – sudden change of routine, a detour, a ‘timebubble’. And it not only helps one to change the environment but also gives an assurance of being alive. Not to dwell too deep into a philosophic concept I will say, I haven’t seen any dead person to be alive but I have seen many alive people being dead.